Friday, October 28, 2016

Gone Green

I've been wanting to dye my hair since I was a teen, and I finally got the chance to! Thought green was an interesting colour, especially against my skin tone. Plus, growing up in a country filled with lush rainforests have always made feel connected to nature and the trees that I wanted to pay homage to the rainforest, somehow. Being in the jungle is peaceful. Sometimes my mind wanders off and I get deep into my thoughts. The silence is different, too - it can get too silent that it pierces your ears. It's free from city noise, but the insects and animals fill up those gaps. Not only is it refreshing, but it makes you feel good from within.

As I'm currently studying in KL, being in the city sans my own car limits my chances of hiking as much as I'd like to. So, I definitely miss the crisp, fresh air that you get when you inhale that the leaves freshly exhale. None of that carbon monoxide from car exhausts, pollution from construction sites, and so on.

I was playing around with make up one night and decided to go for a rose sheen on my eyes and cheeks, complimented by a red lip. Also adding a splash of gold and brown with my earrings to frame my face.

My boyfriend, Fariz, also did his hair with me. It's actually a combination of teal, dark blue and grey in real life, but for some reason the camera CONSTANTLY picks up periwinkle/purple instead. A pretty cool effect, no doubt!

Went to Nagaba to chill out and listen to some music after that. Nice vibes, especially for a hang out with friends (which we lack.. sob). Lol.

Sunday, October 2, 2016

Holding Up

I was having a think the other about how nice it is to look back at past posts. Facebook is doing that with its memory feature but I'm not so keen on spilling my thoughts and feelings out on there. And I mostly spill my thoughts on twitter but I don't want to torture my friends of having to listen to me endlessly complain, hahah. Plus, the 140-character limit doesn't allow me to practise the flow of writing that I need to desperately right now. And I'm usually too lazy to commit to a physical journal.

SO, I've decided to come back to blogging because it'd be interesting to see how my thoughts have developed over the years and to see what I'm currently going through as comparison. I figured that it would be a creative and healthier outlet for when my stress levels get out of hand, so I'm seeing through this on whether it helps or not.

Anyway, I'm in my final year of my degree now (crazy how time flies!) Doing my thesis whilst taking 5 other subjects - due to this I have about 12 assignments to complete this semester; WAY more than I'm used to - and I don't seem to be reacting well to that. I'm about 6 weeks into my semester and it's been SUCH a hell of a rollercoaster ride. My emotions have been doing 180 turns every other day, my sanity doing front flips and back, and my mind flooded with never-ending to-do lists.

So. Yeah. I'm trying to find healthier alternatives to coping as the built up of anxiety I experience can get a bit too much (and they're no fun at all).

I've been successful, so far, in my attempts at finding a balance between everything. Deadlines are looming around the corner, but I'm still making time for enough rest and doing things that I enjoy, like crafting and watching youtube videos! Lol

Friday, February 27, 2015

Embracing change

So much for regularity on this blog! Two months just past within a blink of an eye!!

I've been going through a lot of changes, especially within this month. Just as I had gotten over being homesick, I was finally drowned with enough assignments and tests to create the right amount of stress to distract me. I also had been hanging out with my friends a lot and bonded more and more with them.

Then the day we'd all been waiting for finally came!! The day my boyfriend arrived! That was something. Long distance really makes the heart grow fonder, as they say. We were just talking about this and it's crazy to think that half a year of our relationship was long distance. Skype is cool and all, but physical contact and face to face conversations can't ever be topped.

I've been spending so much time with him and catching up that I'm still kinda in awe that he's finally here. It's a strange, but pleasant, kind of change to adapt to -- all the commuting, flexibility of time, and basically just being in control of doing whatever we want whenever we want. One important thing we've learned is that it can get a bit much when you spend too much time with someone, despite being with them for a long time because you learn all these weird and personal things about each other that you'd never expect -- and that's good, but humans are social creatures and we can't keep socialising with the same person for an extended period of time. Nevertheless, I still miss him deeply everytime we part (depsite meeting the next day again) (#clingylovers #itsjustmethough #notsorry).

While all of that is still happening, I'm trying to wrap my head around the fact that my friends are finally moving out, and so will I, but at a later date. I'm trying to comprehend how much we're progressing into being Responsible (trying very hard) Young Adults. We're going to have OUR OWN APARTMENTS. That is such a grown up thing. It's so weird. I'm sorry. I'm still trying to understand it. That being said, I'm going to miss the late nights and complaining about our current living place and day dreaming of the perfect apartment and coming back from uni together and going out for our dinners and hanging out in each others rooms and meeting new people and so, so many more things.

It's like chapter after chapter after chapter, new new new, adapt adapt adapt, change change change.

I guess I've always been fond of changes, especially since they've been thrown at me constantly since I graduated from A levels, but once it happens I would quiver and fear the change itself and would want to go back to the comfortable ol' life. However, I've tried to accept these changes and march against them with full force, facing them upfront. I get a tingly, nostalgic feeling and I get sad and look back at the good times. It's been quite a challenge to think of the good things that come out of the future and to embrace the uncentertainty that may come with it. It's still quite early in the year of 2015, so I might as well get used to it. Here's to more changes!


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